February 2010
Freckled Cup, Volume 1 →
i’ve got some work in the first issue of freckled cup! its officially out february 5th but theres a discounted presale goin’ on right now. its 64 pages and 39 artists! check it out
give me some time to get on your mind
January 2010
my phrases that sound like quotes from movies but are not quotes from movies, as far as i know at this moment in time, that often pop into my head: the official list
my brain chose ‘face’ as the theme of 1/30/10:
“you have the worst kind of face”
“he sent me a punch in the face”
gotta find where i’ve written down a bunch of the other ones.
“listen to On Fire and pretend someone could love you”
– Dr. Troll by Xiu Xiu
done
had a dream that i was wearing a black flag shirt, walking around a house crowded with my family. some faces were familiar, most were not but they all seemed to know who i was. i know why i was wearing that, i know where it came from and i know what i was looking for in that house. why i was looking there, with all of those people, i do not know.
dreams about you:
“i am a prophet of decay and a pioneer of chaos, because only from chaos does something new emerge.”
-miroslav tichy
i said, “if i watch that, then i will want to cry and hold your hand, i just know it.”
same i said, “that ain’t fair to the movie. its only indirectly its fault, yah know.”
i said, “lots of stuff ain’t fair. like how i want to hold your hand but cant. never will. cant even try. yeah, lots of stuff ain’t fair.”
“but i am still alive in love and wide eyed in my time, not a mummy shrinking in its cloths. your cat clawed out my eyes while i’s distracted by your smile and now my sockets sit like empty catchers mitts waiting and you ask if theres anybody else that i’m dating…
i’m lucky to be under the same sky that held the exhale of your first breath like a ring on a pillow of...
“think i’m going for a walk now, i feel a little unsteady. dont want no body to follow me, except maybe you. i could make you happy, if you werent already, i can do a lot of things and i do. tell you the truth, i prefer the worst of you. too bad you had to have a better half. shes not really my type but i think you to are forever. i hate to say it but you’re perfect together. so...
-trying so hard to find ways to become inspired -researching artistic and cultural movements, trying to figure out ways to learn from them -museum and exhibition visits -reading anything i can -listening to everything -writing so much, trying to figure out my head
but i can not find the answers to
-what matters to me? -what do i have to say? what do i want to say? -what do i do?
i dont know...
when i take galaxie 500 naps i feel just like i’m swimming around at the very bottom of a pool, in the deep end, feeling all of that pressure.
my head feeling all of that pressure, i start to panic because i get distracted by the beauty of looking up through the water and realize that i’m running out of air and i race to the surface and i always think its going to be over.
i think...
“the one thing that we yearn for in our living days, that makes us sigh and groan and undergo sweet nauseas of all kinds, is the remembrance of some lost bliss that was probably experienced in the womb and can only be reproduced (though we hate to admit it) in death.”
jack kerouac, on the road
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2010-1-24) →
not going to get to bed before three yet again. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmlah
-everyday gets better and better
but -waking up in an hour -nervous, tired, and insecure -uninspired but getting better -blahblahblah
KOLDSWEATZ
“nature is neither beautiful nor ugly, neither good nor bad. it is fantastic, monstrous, and infinitely unrestrained. it knows no reason, but it listens to reason when it meets with resistance. nature wants to exist and develop, that is all. being in harmony with nature is the same as being in harmony with madness.”
-hugo ball, flight out of time
-forgetting to eat -sleeping all day -thinking too much -about all the wrong things -a disconnection -wishful thinking
i want to go home for a little bit.
started to cry in an education when her dad comes to her door with tea, started to cry for the wrong reasons.
just the thought of someone giving you shivers.
thats power. thats something.
“i felt your hair across my skin. i didnt know where to begin. a shallow promise...”
number one benefit to having musical friends is definitely free live music all the time.
dan on guitar, danilo on harmonica. makes me smile.
coffee find something to smile about not worry about the countless things i could find to worry about right now play those old favorites shower be hopeful read write brainstorm sleep dont think about sleep pretend that mental power will get me what i want
